Fark….3 ay em, and I can’t sleep. Then again, how can I? I’m too worried about all the things that have happened today. I have no one to turn to, and no one can help, so here I sit, wondering what will happen next. If things go badly over the next few days, then I have nowhere to go…..no place, no car, no nothing….all gone, and in the middle of winter too.
They say it’s always darkest before the dawn, but I have a feeling it’s gonna be a long cold night. I wish I could be more optimistic, but nothing I have tried helps, which only makes it worse.
Well, this week pretty much sucked, and so close to Christmas too. I guess life right now pretty much blows, and there is nothing I can do about it. In this day and age, you cannot help people without having to constantly watch your back, tread cautiously, and never say a word. Not my idea of existence in this life.
I hope I make it through this month, otherwise I’m not sure what I’ll do. This wasn’t how I planned on rounding out the year, but there’s not much I can do about it. Fate may deal a rotten blow, or perhaps there is some good luck left in the world. I’m hoping on the latter, but given the pattern of my life, I doubt that’s gonna happen. If you are reading this, please light a candle for me. I could use it right about now…….