I’m starting to think I’ve come down with avoid-itis….it’s where people tend to avoid you like the plague, although not all have….yet. The finding a job situation sucks rocks as well, so I guess these are all signs that it’s time to pick up and move on. I go to interviews and get the “we’ll call you if we’re interested” shtick and then they never call (should I expect more?). I guess I shouldn’t be surprised…..all I do when I see people is spout off about how farked up things are, so I guess they want to be around more cheerful people.
I just don’t get it…..my life was so in control for the most part, and yet all it takes it one event to turn everything upside-down. I guess I should have known it would be too good to last. I was planning on moving under better terms, but perhaps it was meant to be. I’ll miss the friends I’ve made in Denver, but heck….there is still E-mail for the most part. Have I gotten too bitter for people to want to be around me? Am I too much of a spectacle? Maybe so, but I’m tired of hiding behind a facade of false happiness, thinking the world is a rosy picture and all will just click together…that went away after I put away my last train set. I need another train set….one with big green engines….yeah, that’s the ticket.
I look at it this way….at least they can’t get MUCH worse than they are now…..maybe I shouldn’t say that….because somehow, perhaps it can, and Murphy is not my friend.