I did some going through my blogs and discovered some discrepancies. I like to number my entries (at least on LJ), and for a time, had a blog on Blogger too, so now I’m going through the “housekeeping” on my entries, combining everything together, and then it’ll be complete, so this actually is posting #352 since I started my journal back in 2001. Gad, I’m so anal.
I’ve been remembering a time in my life when my stomach was flat and my energy was greater, and now I look in the mirror and see what a mess I’ve made of myself. I need to make some hard changes (make that hard-right turn as it were) if I’m going to recover and remake myself once again. So now I have my nice comfy seat for my bike, and starting next week, I’m going to ride my bike to and from work as much as possible (weather permitting) and try really hard to modify my diet to where I’m drinking a LOT less soda, trying to eat healthier, and seeing what happens then. My mind is as sharp as ever, so at least I’m not losing that. I’ve started drawing again, which is a great feeling, so I haven’t lost my touch there. I just need to let it evolve now and see where it takes me.
I was looking out the window by my desk today thinking what a lovely day for a bike ride…….but I’m inside for the next 11-12 hours. I have the next 3 days off though, so I think this weekend I’ll take full advantage of it, and try to finish making our moving boxes disappear and then start on DECORATING! I keep threatening to do that, but haven’t gotten around to it yet. I need to get some weed-killer next week for the lawn as well as some grass seed, so I can get some sort of a lawn going as well. Perhaps this activity will foster my losing some of my weight, since I need to drop at least 100 pounds – and SOON! Well OK…maybe not all at once, since that might be catastrophic to me, but at least a steady decline would be nice.
I really need to take my vacation in August so I don’t get into any burnout downward spirals, and I hope to have enough to where the whole family can go because I seem to have this guilt thing going about ditching out by myself. I guess it’s my generous nature to where I don’t want to be selfish about my time, and often times it causes me to lose out on things I really want to do (like when I could have seen Mari back in 2002 DANGIT!), but sometimes you just have to go out and DO it. I just gotta get out of this rut! I think that’s why I left Billings in the first place. I know…….I CHOSE to come back here, but there didn’t seem to be much choice at the time. I won’t know what could have happened since I did not take that path, so there is no sense in worrying about that one now. All I can do now is make new paths and see where they lead. Hopefully good will come of it. I remain optimistic.