I have been out of my particular closet for some time now, and while this has opened a few new avenues in my life, it seems to have held me back in others. A while back, I got a promotion, but was asked to modify my appearance. At first, I told myself it was no big deal-I’d get over it, but it seems to have caused me to backslide in my ways, and I haven’t fully gone out since.
No one has said they wouldn’t associate with me if I didn’t stop, so what is holding me back? I can’t really think of a reason, truth be told. Maybe it’s my work and sleep schedule causing me not to want to spend time getting ready. I still wear pretty much what I like, but I haven’t put any real effort into the whole make-up and jewelry thing. I miss it……so why has my mindset changed? I just don’t get it.
There are still many times that I gear up to go out, but then figure I really don’t have a place in mind to go to. I don’t know what I need to get re-invigorated, but I hope I find it soon, because I enjoy that part of me, and I don’t want to lose it. I also need to regain my creative spirit, but that’s another tale altogether.