I used to be a wild person once upon a time. Not in the drinking, smoking, permiscous sense of the word, but I used to be more outlandish in my self-expression.
We were all young and free-spirited like that once – some still are. As time progresses, one learns to accept certain limitations and has to make changes in order to survive and still continue to be an individual. I suppose that is one of those inevitable things. I lived for a long time being outlandish for one simple reason – I could because I wanted to.
Well…….that’s great if you plan on being your own boss or being lucky enough to have your creativity be your career. So far, it’s not turned out like that for me, but I’m okay with that – I can accept it. I’m not getting any younger, although people still perceive me to being at least 10 years younger than I really am, so I take that as a huge compliment.
Maybe it’s because I don’t think older – maybe age is all a matter of state of mind. It doesn’t mean that some of my former outlandish fashions can still make it for me – let’s face it……I’m not as fit, or as light as I used to be, so…….why fight that. It doesn’t mean I won’t try to get into shape, but there are some things that one just has to let go of, but let’s face it……..you can go walking farther in a comfortable pair of flats than you can in 5″ stilettos. Just ask anyone who has tried it, and they’ll most likely tell you. My hat is off to those who can still pull it off – I’m just not one of them.
So how do a set myself apart from the conformists, even though I’m not the shocking person I used to be? Well, I’ve found that writing tends to help in this regard, as does sketching and 3D graphics – I enjoy both quite a bit, and always avail myself of the opportunity to do a doodle or write a bit of prose.
And yes………my closet is going to get a bit more bare over time. Some things just have no use for me anymore, so no use holding on to what is no longer useful. I may still go out a bit from time to time, and I still plan on getting a kilt someday, but for me……it’s time to change some of my world so it is still part of my being.
This may not make sense to some people who have not known me for a long time, but that’s OK. It’s just me.