This journey started off with a single post, one day, in Denver, Colorado – just some thoughts, some tech savvy, and an stream of imagination and opinion. At first, I wasn’t sure how long this journal would last, but over the years, it’s become my place to sound off and let people know where I am, how I’m doing, and what is going on in my world. A lot has changed in the past 14 years – some things good, and some not so much, but the fact that I am still writing should say something about what I do.
I used to be a person who bucked every system that I ran across – I was defiant and was not going to let anyone walk all over me, no matter how far out in the field I was. I’ve been through many jobs over the years – even before I started this journal, and each one has been its own learning experience – most of the time it was a part of “what not to do – ever”, but without learning from your past mistakes, you never grow into anything better. I’ve rarely had any reason to apologize for anything I’ve ever written, because I say this…..if you don’t like what I write, then you don’t have to read it. It pretty much went along with my fashion taste – if you don’t like it, then don’t look. One would think that was a pretty simple analogy – right?
So I am about a decade and a half older, sometimes a bit wiser, but sometimes still having a lot to learn. I have made friends over the years. I have lost friends over the years. I have changed my circle of friends a number of times, but have kept many of the best ones close by. I have learned to re-find my faith – to find God and figure out what he wants me to do with my life, which has helped many, many times. I have encountered deep loss to the point where I was an emotional wreck and didn’t even know what to think from day to day and didn’t even know who to reach out to.
I used to have a website that I would work on from time to time as time permits, but with the advent of social media over the years, I have learned that my existence online does not have to come from a single point, but can be shared across many canvases. I have reconnected with many people that I have not seen in many years – and recently, had chances to actually reconnect in person as well, which is a huge blessing! I started up a new venture in recent times – started up a YouTube channel that I share stuff with the world. I’m sure in the future, those exposures will blossom in their own ways, and I’ll be able to share my experiences across even more arenas. So while I no longer have a single website, I have a much larger presence than I did before, and can be accessed from many locations.
These days, it seems the most important things to me are the ones that are intangible – faith, family, and friends. Those three things have been my cornerstone for the past few years, and I have been much happier as a result, since I don’t really focus on the material as much as I used to, because material things usually only have a temporary effect – it’s those relationships that we have with people, our world, and our spiritual being that have a long-lasting effect. I am more content in a lot of ways than I used to be. Most of the time, I am more at peace, although it’s not always that way, depending on what each day throws at me……….so I just live for that day, each day. As it says in the Bible – live for today………let tomorrow be it’s own problem.
So……..where do I go from here? Only time will tell, but as each day unfolds, new stories are being told, new thoughts shared, new ideas explored. I’m not as “shocking” as I used to be, partially because I’m not as young as I used to be physically be, plus my budget just doesn’t allow for such obvious frivolities. Every once in a while, I still enjoy my fashion vices, but more in moderation than before. I enjoy movies, anime, and art like I always have, and do plan on eventually getting back into my 3D art now that I have a full version of my Bryce program again. I do enjoy video editing with my new toy, Filmora (I highly recommend this program), so I’ll be doing more video projects in the future.
Here is to the future……..and all of the mysteries we uncover every single day. Live for each day.