For most of my life, I’ve been fighting to be someone different. I’ve been a creative person all of my life, but for the past long-freaking-time, I’ve been trying to continue my self-expression into adulthood.
I guess for some people, it’s easier than others. In this day and age, I think the idea of self-expression has been tossed aside in favor of ego-centricism. People aren’t interested in anything new and different unless it benefits them in some fiduciary capacity. Maybe it’s my age and weight that have brought me to this epiphany, but I figure it’s time to just sit back, be chill, and just enjoy life for all it has to offer. I don’t need to be a shocking, in-your-face person to be creative – I have other avenues for that. I am an artist first and foremost, so I’m thinking perhaps it’s just time to focus my energies on what I can do, and not so much on what I cannot. It’s no one’s fault really aside from my own that I’ve limited my options……it’s where I chose to live, and the atmosphere that accompanies that. I haven’t forgotten about my writings, and I think perhaps I should get back to that, since I did think about making a book of short stories, and they are not going to write themselves, you know. I still draw and doodle – probably not as good as a lot of people you see on Pinterest or DeviantArt, but I have my times that I still sketch stuff out.
Right now, my priorities have pretty much shifted from stuff on the surface to something that may actually mean something. I’ve already re-prioritized my life into my “Three F’s”, which are faith, family, and friends. Those are the most important things. I can’t give up on the things that make ME happy though, so I just need to find outlets for those things. I have the tools to do many of those things, so I have no excuse not to do them……..it’s just time for me to get off my lazy duff and get going on them! I am a lover of social media, as you may have noticed, so perhaps it’s time to make a presence and keep at it! Time to focus my expressionism in ways that can be done and may perhaps even be appreciated, although I’m not expecting any huge success out of it – no overnight superstardom for me. Heck……….I’m not sure I would even want to be famous. What do you really get out of that? Your life is pretty much an open book for every journalist, scandal-sheet writer, and paparazzi out there. Sorry……that just not for me.
Maybe it’s time to grow out a goatee, get a nice comfy bathrobe, and mix up a White Russian………..and just chill……..like The Dude.