I am in love with clothes shopping more now than I think I have in some time. I have found a new love in flared jeans. Of course, I can’t find them in the men’s stores, so I’ve been collecting Venezia flared jeans from Lane Bryant. I love their stretch denim as it’s so soft, comfy, and just looks really good. They also alter my shape sufficiently enough to where I don’t look quite as heavy as I am, which I plan on working on this summer. I have established that I now have 3 different pairs of heels I can easily wear to work under jeans, the highest being 4 inches, which is amazing.
A lot of friends and colleagues have noticed that I seem happier and more confident than before, which of course is true since I can be me, and it doesn’t affect anything else. I haven’t done the makeup thing, but continue to have my nails done and painted all the time, which I’m amazed I can still type pretty darn well. Today I’m going to have them brought back a touch though, so they don’t turn into “Chinese dragon claws” or something equally gaudy. Hint: buy OPI nail polish – it spreads well and wears forever. Darn stuff is practically bulletproof! It’s a bit more expensive, but darn well worth it!
I surprised someone else recently when they found out that I’m not only straight, but married – I get that perception from people sometimes, and it’s always amusing, because I guess they think that people cannot be unique AND have a normal life. The few times I’ve done all-out femme mode have been amusing in the regard that people are similarly shocked to find I’m straight as well. Sometimes I wonder if I’m not really bigendered though, as I feel equally comfortable either way. It’s different from being bisexual, so as not to get the two confused.
I am starting to lose a tiny bit of weight in my ab area, but my upper body has remained the same, which leads me to believe that my “moobs” are probably not going to go away even if I get lighter. That’s OK though…just gives people something else to wonder about. I thought about getting a corset made for me several times, and I have a feeling it would push whatever else I have left upwards, and end up with 38DD cups or something like that – HAR! At least the waist would be smaller though.
OH…..and Halloween is just over 4 months away! Get your GOOD supplies now, and do quit spending money on the cheap crap.
I had a rather amusing encounter with someone today who was probably my first confrontational meeting about any of my recent changes….and it really wasn’t all tha confrontational either. He basically noticed my new nails (how can you not notice platinum nails?) and asked if I had lost a bet! I thought it was rather amusing, since I read some stories about how guys were getting asked about wearing heels, and someone said they had lost a bet just to break the ice.
My favorite response is that now I can type without fear, and I like something a little bit different. People in my everyday environment seem to be pretty oblivious to my nails, heels, “man-bag” carrying….although I was told about a time the other day when I wore my wedge-heel slingback sandals to the grocery store, and apparently there was a guy who was standing behind me GLARING at my shoes!
I mean seriously people…..don’t people have more important things to worry about than what someone puts on their feet? I almost….almost went out of the door this morning to work in my 5″ knee-high boots, but then my own common sense kicked in and said I would regret it due to the distances I’d be walking in them, so I chose my lower-heeled pair instead.
Gads, I’m getting ballsy again, but since I now tend to co-ordinate my clothes a touch better, it doesn’t seem to stand out as much as it used to. Perhaps these are the baby steps in the right direction I should have been doing for some time now.
I so need to prioritize my fundage better. I should have enough to do the things I want to do, but one of the things I keep wanting to get around to (yet haven’t), is setting up my own webspace account. My friend Matt has graciously donated some of his space to me, but it’s having some issues with my login. I CANNOT bitch about this – why? It’s my own fault I haven’t set up my own account yet that I have control over, so that’s going higher on my “to do” list.
I just want to reiterate to bluknight that I am very VERY grateful for what he has done for me, and I am NOT bitching at him or about him – it’s all me.
I just need to get off MY dead arse and do some things.
Okay, so it’s not my real name, but it’s one I’ve adopted – just like when I turn into Jetta onstage, Christyna is the persona I seem to have grown into – it’s kind of a……more free version of myself, and still myself at the same time. Don’t ask me to explain it all – I just like the name, so I plucked it out of the air and stuck it there. It may have come from my recent fashion dabblings, or “she” may have just been waiting in the wings, waiting to come out.
I have to admit, I have felt less inhibited as of late, but maybe that comes from my circles of friends, both here and in Denver, plus the people I associate with in my daily career life. I’ve spruced up my attire in my own way, left my male shoes far behind me (at least for now), and have done things to enhance what I already have. It feels good! It’s nice to be able to be me once again. A lot of people choose alternate names for these times, so this is my expression.
This is me. (okay…the pic on this posting isn’t, but that black and white one I always use IS)